I did not want to be sitting here this morning. I have been feeling less than stellar over the last couple of days, and I was up late last night getting homework turned in. I’m also up late this morning by about an hour, and as I was laying in bed trying to force myself to get up, I was trying to think of a blog topic and nothing was coming.
So I started thinking that I could just skip today, or write sometime later today (although I know myself really well, and that would probably never happen). I was making a lot of excuses, i.e., writing later will give me time to come up with a topic; it’s okay if I skip one day (even though I know that will turn into two or more); etc. And I was pretty close to giving up when I had an epiphany when I was meditating.
So here we are, writing a blog post about persistence. I’m going to assume this post isn’t going to be in the hall of fame, but that’s not really the point. Writing this blog is a way for me to put my ideas down and get them out into the world, sure, but that’s not the only reason. In fact, I wouldn’t even say it’s the top reason.
The top reason for me to write this blog is to see if I can commit to it. To see if I can show up every day for myself. The ideas are important, they are what keep me yearning to learn more, but the persistence of sitting down every morning and getting those ideas out of my head is much more important to me right now.
One of my favorite speakers, T.K. Coleman, suggests Personal Development Projects (PDPs) as a way to commit to yourself and your interests. A PDP is usually done for a month, so you pick a project you want to do and you do it every day for a month. This blog is that for me. And the hope is that, at the end of the month, I will know more about myself–more about whether the project is something I really enjoy, or just something I was trying out.
I have a lot of interests and ambitions, but I tend to avoid action. This blog is a way for me to create forward momentum. Commit to something and follow through. Maybe at the end of the month, I will decide that blogging isn’t for me. But I won’t know until I try. And I definitely won’t know if I quit when it gets a little difficult. Growth isn’t easy. That’s why they call them “growing pains.” But if you can persist through the growth, you come out better on the other side.